Rewrite the book

In the midst of this life,
which can be confusing and difficult 
and bring sorrow and misunderstanding and loss,

I surrender myself to the truth of this moment,
of where I am here in this body,
on this planet,

forever facing the unknown,
even though I often don't admit it to myself.

I am here now, and that is all I am truly certain of.
And as I am here now, in this body, sensing and feeling, 
I wish to become more open to a higher influence in life 
open to the place where life itself flows into being 
for this is a very high influence.

Indeed, life comes directly from the highest influence of love.

And I wish to take this higher influence into me 
simply by being willing to receive it.

To open, perhaps, the soles of my feet and the top of my head together at the same time.
So that the force of love flows into me not just from below and from above 
but from every direction the force of love flows into me 
and into me through this place in the top of my head,
flows the force of being itself,
which moves down through me,
through my brain stem,
through my throat,
and into my heart itself.

A force that will, if I allow it to enter, 
help me to rewrite the book of my life.

To rewrite what has been written in every cell in the body.

and to replace the words of pain and loss and confusion and selfishness 
with the words of love and of goodness 
so that the book of my life is written new within me.

I cannot be as I am.
And I hope to rewrite this book of my life 
in my cells and my molecules 
in such a way that the entire book is a new truth,
a new story.

I am here at the first chapter, 
the first sentence, 
the first word 
in my effort to begin again.