To remember more clearly

I cannot call to my life and expect it to come to me 
Because life doesn't obey me.
Life is something as large as the cosmos itself is
And it obeys its own laws to which I am subject.

I can wait here and search for life by being still,
By coming back inside of myself to a more precise,
Gentle,
And exact sensation of my body.

(This is a place that has come to rest in such a way 
That life will hear its call and come,
Even though the call is silent and I do nothing.

The issue within me is that I do too much and I have very little patience.
If I center myself here now in this sensation of my being,
I can see the merit in stillness,
The way that the mind becomes more clear as it empties.
The way that the whole body begins to gather its energies 
In a new and different way.
So that the awareness of every cell begins to participate.

And now already I am touched
By the edge of real life,
True life.

Life that breathes here and senses here.

Life that remembers to pay attention to forces such as magnetism and gravity,
The two properties of the laws of life that bring it together in specific places.

For a moment, everything becomes the breath.
Life and breath are together here as a whole thing that is known by the body 
In a new and different way.

The mind continues to remain still.

And now I see more clearly that the whole of me,
Every atom,
Every molecule 
Is a receiver of life,
which flows into being here and now.

I begin to sense myself as a vessel into which the world flows.

And for once, here and now, 
I hold no opinions on this matter.

I simply experience it.

There is goodness here.

I am available to that goodness.

And as I concentrate this force within me,
Without opinions,
Without a direction or a thought,
I accept the conditions I'm in.

And I understand that just as I receive this goodness,
So am I called to bring it forth into life as it is lived in me.