Confronting the unknown

In order to see and understand myself more clearly,
I don't look outside 
at the nature of the things that happen 
or the thoughts that I have. 

I turn my attention to my inner being.

And it is here, now, 
in this moment, 
that I once again begin the search for my life, 
the root of my life. 

As I begin I remember that I am breathing. 
I am breathing the life of life on this earth. 
The compounds in the air. 
The cosmological elements that allow creatures 
to live on the surface of every planet that can support it. 

They bring in the essence of life itself 
in its chemical nature. 

And I come in to a grateful relationship 
with the way in which these chemical elements 
distribute themselves evenly
throughout the entire body.

Already, as I gather the impression of this exchange 
between the air and my body, 
a greater sense of wholeness emerges. 

For I see more clearly, 
through my sensation of being itself, 
a participant in the life of Earth itself. 

I remember my presence and relationship here on this planet from within. 

And now I allow the energy of that exchange to become a vehicle 
through which I sense the magnetism of being 
as it draws itself together here
into a more concentrated force. 

The possibility of an opening begins to make itself known. 
And without touching it, 
I align every particle of my being that can help me pay attention 
so that it is more prepared for that partnership. 

And even though I am nothing more
than a beginner, an initiate
I can already sense the sacred nature of that alignment 
and acknowledge it, 
understanding that I do not know how to take the next step. 

I only know how to prepare. 
And even in this, I am a beginner. 

So I wait here on the threshold of being 
confronting the unknown.